Whew. September and October were very rough months for me, but thankfully the cloud is starting to lift. Over the last year or so I had become a passenger at home, letting everyone else make decisions while sat here accommodating and taking care of everyone else. I really thought this made me a better wife and mother…I was wrong. It was just allowing people to take advantage of me and not treat me very well. By mid-October, I had ENOUGH and was a mess of emotions.
I can’t control everything in life, of course, but there are a lot of things that I can change!
It began with an appointment to see my doctor.
I’ve had hormonal skin issues ever since my second pregnancy in 2009 and have accepted that I will never have perfect skin. However, in September went skin went NUTS. I began having massive and painful breakouts all over my chin and neck area. My skin hurt all the time and I was really embarrassed of how I looked. This wasn’t even the worst of it:
These are not the kind of breakouts that you can cover with makeup because it only hurts more and makes everything worse. My doctor put me on a round of antibiotics (and another medication that I carry on taking after the antibiotics are finished) and I’m happy to say that my face and neck no longer hurt! I will have scarring for awhile, but I’m used to it and will take that any day of the week over the above picture. I treated myself with a visit to Sephora to get some new makeup (an amazing CC cream) to help cover the scarring-my old makeup expired two years ago…whoops.
The same day I saw my doctor (Oct 23), I also changed a lot of my eating habits. I cut out most sugar and junk/emotional eating. I didn’t count calories, but started eating mostly whole foods. Within eight days, I had lost that extra five pounds (and bloating) I had been carrying around. Within two weeks, I felt like a new woman. My 40th birthday on Oct 24 was a bit of a bust, but it’s only a day and I have a whole year to do something fun to celebrate 40.
I also had a lot of conversations with my husband, one with my in laws, and one with my own parents. No need to get into those details 😉 The end result is that I will be equal in plans made around here and my plans will no longer be canceled or put on the back burner until it’s convenient for everyone else (it NEVER seems to be convenient). The first week or two of the school year is no longer a good time for the in laws to visit now that all the boys are in school, so they are changing when they visit. To be fair…they brought this up before I did, so it was an easy conversation! Dave will also be taking time off work to entertain them when they visit in the future. They are his parents after all.
The only thing that hasn’t come together yet is getting into any kind of consistent exercise routine, but that’s ok right now since I’m feeling so good. I walk several kilometres daily taking kids to and from school up to 3 times per day since Chris is only in 1/2 day kindergarten. Winter has come early this year, so often I’m pushing a kid or two in the double BOB stroller on cold, windy days or pulling them on a sled–trust me…it’s a workout! I toss in yoga when I can, but no consistency there either.
Now this is the exciting part! With Dave’s parents coming the last week of June or first week of July next year AND him taking the time of work while they are here…I’m finally getting my road trip to British Columbia! Once they book their flight I can make some concrete bookings, but this is my plan so far:
Spend Canada Day weekend in Penticton and Kelowna swimming, biking, and doing touristy stuff that I didn’t get a chance to do during previous visits since I was too busy volunteering for races and then rushed home. Other events will be the open water swim in Canmore and a fall mediofondo in Cranbrook in September.
I will be going to Penticton the weekend of July 7 and will sign up for the mediofondo in that event. There will also be swimming and touristy stuff. I will still do the Canmore open water swim, but will likely skip the fall fondo event.
I had originally considered trying some gravel bike events next year, but I’m not ready to pull the trigger on getting a new bike. I do hope to rent or borrow a cross bike at some point in order to try it. I may sneak out the Ghost in the Gravel event next summer just to see what the vibe of the race is like and have a look at the course.
I will be downhill skiing this winter while Chris is at kindergarten and am going to try some nordic skiing as well if I can find a suitable location nearby. I really, really need to get back in the pool, but haven’t because of my skin. Now that it is healed and I have a new swimsuit I must start making the effort to get out the door and back in the water.
So there it is! I’m really excited about what this next year will bring…and what I will bring to it 😀