This past week has been a rough one…another bad session on the trainer with intervals that left my knee feeling strained and a trainer that has started making this extremely loud clicking noise. It got me thinking about how cycling has rarely ever gone well for me and I’m wondering if it’s time to cut my losses and move on to something else.
I’ve probably invested nearly $1000 into this sport (fit/clothing/bike parts/etc.) over the last year. It’s looking like a never ending money pit as I was told my bike needs $300 in repair and I will need a new trainer if I can’t figure out the clicking noise in the one that I have.
I think it would be different if I was seeing improvement over the years or was able to sign up for fun events. The truth is that events are far too expensive for me to suffer through only to barely make time cut offs and then feel like a big, fat failure. It’s no fun. Triathlon is more affordable and there are more events out there, but my knees have left me unable to run at all. I’ve tried walking the run, but because I look like I should be able to run-all spectator and volunteers yell for me to run and I have to keep having to say that I physically can’t do it. That’s no fun either.
Another aspect I’m struggling with lately is volunteering/social media. Some days it’s tough seeing event updates and promos in sports that remind me of personal failures…every single day-ouch. Announcing races just doesn’t have the same appeal to me as it used to and a part of me just wants to walk away from it all. I’m locked into calling three this summer, but am considering not doing two of them next year so I can unfollow those events in social media.
So what do I do?? Where does this leave me??
It’s far too early in the season to consider quitting cycling, but I am feeling a bit frustrated right now and wonder if there is a different sport I can do that I might actually be successful at. How amazing would it feel to do well in a sport???? I did have a great ride a couple of weeks ago in the mountains and I really needed that mental boost! Cycling CAN be fun…it just seems to be a rarity 😉
I think a good start is to get OUT of my basement this week and put TrainerRoad on ice. The weather is finally starting to get a bit better, so I think I should make the effort to get outside this week. It doesn’t even have to be on my road bike…I have two other cheapie bikes (pathways and mountain) that I can spend some time on instead. I can get back to the gym and just zone out on the elliptical or step machine. I do need to make some changes if I want my fitness motivation back.